Spark..

There's not an explanation available on how creatures acknowledge affection. It is often summarized, in its truest sense, as a feeling of excitement, a cringe, or butterflies to some. People are often unaware of the said feeling until they recognize this certain little thing called spark.

This spark thing, essentially, cannot be forced nor averted. Trust me, I tried and I failed. As much as I'd like to believe that I am in full control of how I want things to be - still, the feeling takes over you and you end up finding yourself in the most foolish way any sane man can think of.

Let me tell you that I'm the most coward person you'll ever meet. Not that I'm weak - but because i hate losing things/experiences/people I typically have just because I want to go a mile further. Also, I only know a single person who made me this afraid to fall. Reason? Just because I know that when I let myself, I'd hurt myself through the process. It's way risky and I'm not prepared for another heartache.

I eventually did. Why on earth will I say no to things and events that I know will truly make me happy? That person made me believe that we have our exact match, that the longer you wait, the better you'll be rewarded as I thought I found what exactly I am looking for. Now, I'm reaping the things that I'm most dreadful of. I'm now becoming a master of coping and moving on.

Through it all, I can say that the best feeling in the world is actually realizing how much you like another being, not because you're physically attracted and all other petty reasons, but because you understand how much that person complements you. I'm more than willing to shout and tell the whole world how we fit well together, but luckily, the situation just won't go the way I want it to be.

I have never even told that person how everything meant to me. Call me mushy, cheesy, and all that, but things left unsaid always get the best out of me and here I am, writing it all down in my blog which never fails me.

There would be a thousand more people you'll meet in the entirety of your life, but only a few or maybe just a single one can turn your world upside down and shake you down to your roots. The irony in the 'spark' concept actually rests on the fact that you may have experienced it from a person that you thought meant forever - however, that person may not actually find that spark within you, but with somebody else.

Marathon Quotable Quotes..

"Hate me, but don't push me too far away."

Too much cheesy lines for an awesomely cheesy day. This is how bummers like me roll.

Just So You Know

Maybe your first thought that came with the title is Jesse McCartney's song..

Guess what? You're somewhat correct.

It suddenly dawned on me that I miss all the little things about you. Setting aside everything that took place, you still occupy a great space in me. I might not even forget about you, even if I try the hardest.

You are everywhere and I'm sick.

Sick of not being able to do anything about it.

Even what I do and what I plan to do includes you.

I am living the dream we both planned.

This might be your curse. You are to blame.

Just so you know.

Even if you don't care a single bit.

On Valentines..

As we all felt the fleeting feeling earlier, saw roses everywhere, eyed on lovestruck couples here and there, heard silly love songs that kept playing all throughout the day.. We got to realize that today is Valentine's Day.

What makes this day apart from any other is the fact that people exert generous amount of effort and tend to do so much to make a fool out of themselves for a single day. Set aside the fact that Valentine's is just a commercial campaign directed on making malls and other commercial establishments generate millions after millions of profit from lovers all around the globe, it still remains as a world renowned holiday for celebrating love, as unique as each one of us perceives it.

Waking up to such a holiday is another awkward moment for the life of me. I mean, who the hell in the world celebrates Valentine's Day alone? No bitter feeling associated here, but I really do think that I'm not the target market of the holiday.

I believe it's for couples who want to be reminded of what they saw in each other and what made them stick to one another through thick and thin.

It's for people who saw love, loved, and felt love.

As a complete outsider to the Valentine group, I still chose to write about love tonight. People often see love as the fleeting feeling, the gestures, the gifts, and everything fancy associated with it, but it really is more than all that.

A few years ago, I saw the most ironic face of love and Valentine's Day.

As the whole world celebrated on the 14th of February, a couple tried to relive the fleeting feeling, though they had been separated by destiny a few days before Valentine's came.

The guy still did his gestures that made the lady swoon, as if she can still tell him how much everything meant to her. It's the sincerest thing that a man can do to a person he adores. A proof that love bounds through eternity, space, and time.

Seeing such made me think of how love can change a person.

It will make you do crazy things out of sheer will.

It puts a large hole in your pocket without you knowing.

It gives you the right to don't care about what others would have to say.

But at the end of the day, love makes you a better person.

It makes you more human as it teaches you how to appreciate another being.

It creates good memories that'll last a lifetime.

And as you grow old, it tells you that you'll never have to be alone.

Now I know you'll ask me about the ill-fated ones such as I.. What do people like me know about love when we don't have a partner to begin with?

The exact concept of love doesn't demand one to rely on another to comprehend what it really means, as people don't end up the same as everyone else.

Again, love makes a person grow.

It doesn't require another being to make you realize what you have learned from loving.

That is left of a person who took the risk.

Hopefully, the next time February 14 comes, I'll be more than fit to be in its target market.

Who knows?